Life in the unknown

We are moving through transformation as a humanity and as part of transformation, there is death and rebirth. The following words are from a challenging experience in my life. These words remind me of the painful beauty of this Human journey, of letting go of everything that we orientate ourselves around that holds us in invisible shackles as our identities and traumas; collectively. I am still removing the deep programming that I can get it “right or wrong,” but finding so much potential in the openness of the Question.

Nothing is set or secure, all is fluid in these times, my life, my perception, my identity.

Everything feels dependent on everything else in any given moment.

There is no rope to hold on to, no ropes like the ones I’d known before.

At times there are little threads, threads that feel nice to hold.

The same ones I’ve seen before that I seem only JUST able to hold on to with a single finger and thumb, but now I’m forgetting how to hold onto them and they seem to slip away.

I think they feel nice to hold onto mostly when I’m scared.

So what purpose do these threads serve then? Do they serve my fear and old identity alone? Or are they more than that?

Maybe they’re just here for me until I don’t need them anymore.

There is also another kind of thread that doesn’t feel so nice, in fact these ones appear a little more often, and sometimes I don’t know I’ve grabbed on to them until I start to feel them show up in my emotional body.

These ones are thick. I don’t know if they are always there and I don’t notice them, or if they show up front and centre to grab onto when I activate their presence.

I feel like it may be the former.

These ones feel familiar but from an age long ago, I think this is why I continue to pick them up - I’ve known them well for a long time.

Maybe I can let these go too?

I wonder if it’s time to let go of the threads? But every single one? What’s at the other end of them?

Are there different threads to pick up?

Will these ones serve me better?

Or will I let them all go?

Do they only connect to the past and the future?

Or can I let them all go?

Does letting them all go let me be fully here and now?

I don’t know…