Get Real

There are times where the waters of life are still and softly flowing…

And there are times of greater force and movement.

Recently, life’s been calling me to get real with it.

Sammy, what’s your big picture here?

What do you ultimately value?

What do you need?

What needs to be prioritised?

What needs to go?

It’s during these times where I am encouraged (sometimes squeezed) to expand.

No compensating, no hiding from myself, no more being indecisive.

Getting honest with God.

Seeing. Feeling. Meeting life and things for what they are, not what I believed or conjured them to be.

Often, difficult decisions are to be made. And even more difficult conversations to be had.

The gold!

But ooph, those up close meetings with fear…

Do I really have to let go of this? Of that? Of the ‘Me’ that I have been?

What will people think? What if they judge me? Reject me? Dislike me?

What if you disappoint them?

Nah. I don’t want to. It’s safer here. It’s familiar.

It’s no big deal anyway. I can handle it.

Why can’t you do what they do?

What if it’s a mistake? If I get it wrong? (some of those big ones, no?)

I could let all my fears take me on a rollercoaster ride, and yeah, I do. Sometimes for yonks and donkeys!

But still, a simple truth remains beneath it all.

The heart’s gentle knowing.

With some things… deep down you just know, you know?

There come’s a point where ignorance, avoidance, loopdy-loops of mental story or distraction no longer cut it.

They create a world of themselves, and really, they’re not that fun at all.

Who am I living for?

Do I trust what Life is asking of me?

Will I align myself with this greater spiritual will for my life?

What does that even mean?

Have I got my own back?

Okay, I’m all in. Again.

See, I forgot for a bit, and things change.

I change.

Refresh.

How consciously can I walk into and through this next evolution?

I think that life invites us, again and again, to trust ourselves and to trust it more, despite all the external noise and influence (internal too).

So that we can move with greater Love and care for ourselves, Life, and each other in better ways.

This is beyond the realm of being ‘good’ or ‘nice’, like we’ve been taught to be for so long.

This is about an integrity with the Divine, and with ourselves, to choose and to LIVE (like really, Live a life that’s true).

That honours our precious Birth and our Death to come.

The big picture. Of evolution. Our own, and humanity’s.

In the end, who do I answer to?

No one, but myself, and the Divine.

Born in a body on a floating, spinning ball (or not) in space-time, in the dark, infinite multiverse.

So many layers and realms in the webs and sub-webs of creation that we can engage with.

A unique walk of life… with no map, no compass.

Maybe I am it?

Maybe it’s already written?

Maybe we’re all writing it together?

So it’s time now. And it will be time again.

To get real with no one else but me and mystery.

To listen deep.

To choose. With my God-given birthright.

Who are you?

What are you here for?

What do you need now?

What do you care about?

What are you engaging with in life?

Do your days reflect what you value?

Breathe.

Listen… Heart, Body, Spirit, Wisdom.

Trust.

Witness.

Feel it all.

Choose.

Rest.

Breathe.